Calories consumed :
Exercise : 30 minutes Cross trainer.
PMA : No retards spoken to today, apart from one boy who asked me for my number a couple of weeks ago who has been attempting to sext with me ever since. I put him straight as to where i’m at and made it clear i’m not going to just jump into bed with him. Nor am I looking for a relationshp, but wanting to see where life goes without sleeping around.
My parents are back from holiday today 200 cigarettes in hand with my name on it. Stoked. £60 saving there! Woo!
Ok so maybe i’m single again, but thats more than ok because as it turns out he’s actually an aggressive abusive and untrusting bastard who I am rid of mentally and physically.
However this, coupled with watching bridget jones this evening means I need to get my life and mind in order.
My diet started today. My positive mental and physical attitude also started today and consecuently my so has regular blogging.
Calories Consumed : 1273
Yay is all I have to say.
Calories burned : 526
Cross trainer and exercise bike. I’ve started going with a friend of friend. He’s trying to lose weight too, and the mutual friend is my friends boyfriend who will be joining us when he’s back off of holiday. I know both of them will encourage me without being too pushy and it’ll be nice to have company.
People spoken to i’d like to avoid : 0
This is relevant because of me trying to improve my self respect. There are a couple of men that i’ve had relations with over the last few months who see me as nothing but an accessory, and I want it no longer. I know they don’t see me as anything more than this and I don’t want it anymore. Need to kick ass and be respectable. I don’t want to be wanted temporarily anymore. I think you give off an essence when you don’t respect yourself, and men can tell.. and it always ends up the same way.
Slate clean. Again. But this time I mean it. I want out of this rut i’ve been in since this time last year. No more horrible undeserving boyfriend, no more men using me as a door mat, no more feeling sorry for myself.
Anonymous:
Any chance we could see you naked?
Not anymore naked than you’ll already find on here.
